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Originally Posted by aerovette
This is all great advice and intellectually sound. I intellectually know it to be true, as is everything else posted. Where the brain becomes scrambled eggs is the emotions interfering with the logic. I don't WANT a divorce. If I did, this would be a cake walk. I still love her in my soul. Yeah, I know, it sounds like a chick writing a Dear Abbey letter. LOL.
I think about vacations, movies, a funny story, a piece of trivia, a dinner idea, furniture I like, whatever, and I want to share it with the person that has been my partner for 21 years and they are GONE. It is an empty, lonely feeling and it is taking control of me and I seem to be unable to fight back. To me it is WORSE than if she died because death isn't a choice. This person CHOSE to not be with me anymore. That's tough.
Anything and everything I do is just a shiny paint job on a turd. It all looks happy and smiley on the outside, but inside is a mental and emotional hurricane. It's like 6 bar bouncers kicking my heart's ass.
I appreciate the advice and words of encouragement. I'll refer to them as this moves forward.
When all is said and done and the emotions are removed, it will ultimately be a financial/business transaction and we already don't agree on things. Bumpy roads ahead.
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I feel the same, but at the same time. I have to take some credit too. Even though they quit on us. Two things are very clear. 1. You can't make someone love you. 2. A one sided love affair never works.
I will try to do everything I can for my kid.
I just wish there was a quicker way to get past it all and move forward.
Right there with you man. Feel free to chat or vent anytime. I am sure there are more than just us in the same boat.
