Taking the high road is very tough sometimes, especially if the divorce gets nasty along the way. But if you have kids, it is imperative you keep it positive for them. Even if you have to explain that you and her were not getting along and for the sake of each other and the kids, you both had to do this to be of best benefit to them. Unhappy parents do NOT help the kids.
You'll get out of your routine that you had.
You'll come home to an empty residence.
You'll feel lost. You'll feel alone.
You have two choices at this point:
1. Accept it is happening
2. Deny it is happening
Once you accept it is happening, you have 2 more choices:
1. Bitch, moan, and be bitter about it.
2. See it as a chance to change up your life to bring you happiness.
Try something you've been wanting to try. Make that job change. Buy that car. Sell that car. Whatever. The slate is effectively wiped clear so you can make your life what you want to make it. You'll just have to do it without her at your side. That'll hurt at first, but you'll realize that you've lived to try and salvage a relationship that wasn't going to be salvaged, despite your best efforts. Even if you busted your ass to save it, she had to want to save it too, and it appears that she didn't.
She has the same choices ahead for her, but it will be on a different road. Perhaps you can stay amicable and be friends, but I don't know your situation.
You just focus on you and your kids, if you have any. Their happiness is paramount. If there are no kids, focus on yourself and your family (your parents and siblings), and work on doing what you want to do.
You have friends, family, and coworkers that care about you. Reach out to them. Be honest with how you're feeling. They'll appreciate being trusted in and you'll have the support you need.
No need to drag that yoke on your shoulders any more.
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