Wow. I really don't know what to say, other than, I'm sorry for your losses. I mean, Job has nothing on you in the way of suffering, although if your next post is about coming down with horrible skin rashes and boils, it wouldn't surprise me. Just know that a lot of us care about you and want you to get through this and come out whole on the other side.
Please take care of yourself and any remaining dogs, and if you need a shoulder or just some folks to beat on to take out your frustrations, the VB is here.