Thoughts and prayers needed

[J S Machine]

I've never asked for thoughts and prayers, but I need them now.

I hoped that I would never have to do this, but tonight I am starting a thread about a very real situation and any kind of support would be great.

I have posted about my mother a few times here on the forum, and some of you know the situation with her. I have received advice and support from many here in the past.

Tuesday night, my guitar playing and attempts at singing were interrupted by a sharp knock at my front door. There I found a county sherrif's office investigator who asked my if I was (my name). I told him I was, and he asked me if I knew (my mother's name). I told him yes, she is my mother, and he asked to come in.

When he sat down, he shot straight to the point. "There's no easy way to say this, but your mother's body was found in the Montgomery mall parking lot at about 10am this morning." No details, no information at all really, other than to tell me the bad news.

...the local news stories:

Body found at Montgomery Mall identified | montgomeryadvertiser.com | Montgomery Advertiser (http://www.montgomeryadvertiser.com/apps/pbcs.dll/article?AID=2011110202045)

Body found at Montgomery Mall | montgomeryadvertiser.com | Montgomery Advertiser (http://www.montgomeryadvertiser.com/apps/pbcs.dll/article?AID=2011110201024)

Body found in mall parking lot | Central Montgomery News (http://centralmontgomery.wsfa.com/content/body-found-mall-parking-lot)

After a long and hard road for about the past 10 years, my mother's life came to an abrupt end Tuesday morning. She finally found the end of this road, and it came too soon.

A broken relationship with me over her only grandaughter, who turned 2 on January 30th, has pressed on my mind for some time. Understandable disagreements with my wife about whether or not my mother should see my daughter have been commonplace, but my wife's concerns were merited. Sunday afternoon, we visited mom at her apartment. She stood outside the car and we rolled the windows down. She was able to sing happy birthday to Haleigh and visit for a little while before we went on our way. That was the last time I saw mom. She called me tuesday morning at about 6am, just to talk. I was busy at work so I rushed her off the phone. The conversation lasted 23 seconds according to my phone.

Alot left unanswered here and still alot of pain and hurt. we all new this day would come, but I sure didn't expect it now. Do you ever expect it?

Here are a few crappy quality pictures of better days. My mom was once a very beautiful lady. I found these pictures today in her apt as I was searching for important documents.

This was in about '88 or so, I was around 4 years old.

http://i226.photobucket.com/albums/dd198/JSMachine/mom/mom3.jpg

This one was around '92 or so.

http://i226.photobucket.com/albums/dd198/JSMachine/mom/mom4.jpg

While my mother led a life of drugs and constanty being in trouble with the law, she was still a good person. She was my biggest fan and loved me unconditionally. Even though I didn't see her that much in the past few years, I'm going to miss her. I really am.

Thanks for reading.

[vetteman9368]

prayers sent. I hope your mom finds peace with the Lord, and I hope you and your family are able to heal.

[MEANZ06]

so sorry man! prayers sent to you and your family...

[high desert]

Damn! I'm so sorry for your loss. Prayers sent. :sadangel:

[69camfrk]

Very sorry man. Broken relationships and untimely deaths just add up to even more heartache. Hang in there. Prayers sent.

[Woody]

Very sad. My condolences to you and your family. :angel:

[1911fool]

:sadangel: Thoughts, prayers, and good hopes headed out for you.

[Dan-O]

:angel::angel:

Our hearts go out to you.

[oyealiz]

What very sad news. :(

It sounds like you've done the best you could in your dealings with her for all these years.

Thoughts and prayers sent.

[Corey_68]

So sorry to hear, prayers for you and your family. :(

[MrPeabody]

I don't know if you have children, but if you ever do, allow this situation to strengthend your bond with them. Positive thoughts and wishes for healing sent your way.

[mrvette]

Sorry man, you take care, she in a better place now.....

[tuco]

So sorry to hear about your mother. Prayers sent for her and you also.
Praying she is a peace and that you are also, FWIW I agreed with your decisions.:sadangel::sadangel:

[Barn Babe]

Wow, that's just awful. Prayers sent for both you and your mother.

[oahuyahoo]

:sadangel::sadangel:

[Yamma]

wow man - I'm so sorry to hear about this. I'll keep you all in my prayers as you get through this time.

[Blademaker]

Truly sorry to hear, I can't imagine what you're going through. :sadangel:

May God bless and keep you all. :angel:

[Flatbush Harry]

Condolences on your Mother's passing. Prayers sent for for her and your healing.

Harry

[neece]

May God comfort you and your family. Losing your parents so young has made you a wise young man. Your mom loved you dearly.:angel:

[bradc6]

:sadangel:

[Superstreet]

That is terrible,John. :( I have followed your threads about your mom. You,your wife and Haleigh will be in our thoughts and prayers. :angel:

[Entropy]

:angel: :angel: :angel:

[repo]

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[nhra_ta]

:sadangel::sadangel: I am so very sorry to hear about this. I have followed your threads about your mom. Hopefully she has finally found peace. We will keep you and your family in our thoughts and prayers.

[Bingo Fuel]

My thoughts and prayers for you and your family. :sadangel:

[Scissors]

:angel:

[VatorMan]

So sorry. I know that was hard to write. :sadangel::sadangel:

[fartleker]

:sadangel:

[War Eagle ZO6]

:sadangel::sadangel:

[Ms.Gem]

:sadangel:

[Vet4jdc]

prayer sent....:sadangel:

[Ol Timer]

I'm so sorry to hear this, John. I pray that you get through this, that your family will be strengthened, and that you remember the better days of your Mom's life.

[Z06David]

Prayers sent :sadangel: very sorry for your loss

[carlton_fritz]

:sadangel: Remember the good times. Forget the bad. Keep i mind that we never know what awaits us each day and take faith in God that you can handle anything out in your path.

[beadist]

:sadangel: Prayers sent for you and your family.

[xXBUDXx]

I'm really sorry, John.

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. If there is anything I can do, please let me know.

[longhorn341]

Aw man..... prayers sent:sadangel:

[MEC5LADY]

Prayers sent. The demons that some people fight are a powerful force and no matter how much you tell them or love them it's hard for them to resist. I am sure your mother loved you very much and she knew how much you loved her but that you had to do what's best for you and your family. I know this is hard to do but concentrate on the good things and remember her for those things. We don't always get to choose what happens in our lives but you have to keep hold of the positives to move foreward.
hugs

[NikiQ]

:sadangel:

[78SA]

Very sorry man. Broken relationships and untimely deaths just add up to even more heartache. Hang in there. Prayers sent.

:iagree: :sadangel:

[thkauffman]

Thanks for sharing that with us.

Prayers sent for comfort and healing.

[Defib1961]

:sadangel::sadangel:

[khblair]

I'm really sorry. Your situation is similar to mine except my fathers attempt at suicide wasnt successful. Prayers for your family.

[jaxgator]

Wow! Truly a sad ending. I am sorry for your loss. Prayers for you and your family.

[J S Machine]

Thank you.

Weird as it may seem, I've found myself searching for ever good memory I can remember. I haven't really recalled much of the bad in the past few days. Most of the good memories are from my childhood.

[onedef92]

The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit (Psalm 34:18).

God, you care deeply for broken-hearted people.

This is a promise you make: You are close.

We pray for JS Machine and all those who are crippled by broken relationships. Our hearts take the blow of disappointment.

We feel crushed because our hopes are dashed. God, heal broken hearts. We can't fix our own wounds, but you can.

If pieces of our heart have been lost, or are held captive by another, recover them and bring them back to us and miraculously put us back together so that our heart is whole again.

You are a mender of broken hearts. We ask for this precious gift of healing in the name of Jesus.

Amen.:sadangel::sadangel::sadangel:

My deepest sympathies, JS. May Christ's peace comfort you and your family during this devastating time. Holler at me anytime.

[VITE1]

:sadangel::sadangel::sadangel:

[BAT]

Wow, wasn't expecting to read something like this. Prayers for you and your family. may your mother rest in peace. :sadangel:

[dwjz06]

Damn! I'm so sorry for your loss. Prayers sent. :sadangel:
:iagree: Really sorry JS.

[Olustee bus]

John, from what you described, it sounds to me that God was definitely at work in this situation. You visited your mother and she got to see her granddaughter and then your mother was taken. God sent you there. Her suffering is over and she is definitely at peace now, and she is truly basking in the love of God. You should feel not regrets at all. You could have had zero impact on what has occurred.

[Bane]

Prayers sent for you and your family.

[wwomanC6]

http://i1089.photobucket.com/albums/i359/dixonwl/smileys/4c830c9e.png My she rest in peace, and may you always cherish the good memories. Sorry about your loss, John. Prayers and thoughts go out so that you and your family be comforted!

:squirrel:

[w!ngnut]

Very sorry man. Broken relationships and untimely deaths just add up to even more heartache. Hang in there. Prayers sent.

Wow...just saw this thread and pretty much would have posted the above.

:sadangel:

[Sea Six]

I'm very sorry to hear about this.

:sadangel:

[J S Machine]

Just wanted to update..

I am finally 95% done with wrapping up this whole thing, closing the book, and moving on.

Still a few papers to sort through, people to contact for different reasons, and last but not least: waiting on the toxicology report to find out what the definite cause of death is.

Today, something amazing happened.

Let's just say that I know Mom had a very small amount of money when she passed. Up until today, I wasn't sure if it had been taken from her body, given to a drug dealer, or any number of other possibilities. The fact that the money was not accounted for was bothering me.

Today, while turning her new apt upside down, I found it. I'm not going to get into details, but I'm just going to say that what I found made this whole week of working, trying to wrap everything up, and trying to close this book completely worth it.

Mom never really could buy our daughter anything because of other obligations with her money..drugs, bills, groceries, you name it. Also, there was always the factor of whether or not we would approve of what she bought for Haleigh. She had mentioned buying a Haleigh a few Golden books for her birthday (Jan 30, 2011). I heard this but had found none in cleaning out her apt.

Little Golden Books (http://www.randomhouse.com/golden/lgb/)

Tonight we hit the book store and we cleared a shelf. We bought enough Golden books for Haleigh for her to use and enjoy for years to come. Tomorrow, we will go and get her a few spring outfits and some other things she needs.

I know that somewhere, wherever Mom is, she is smiling down on us now, knowing that the money that I found is being spent on her one and only grandbaby. I have given my Mom the opportunity she always wanted, but couldn't do because of other things in her life. Now, those other obligations no longer matter, and Haleigh will be happy.

I only wish Mom could see her playing an reading her new books and wearing her new clothes. She would be so proud :)

I feel good about tonight. Hard not to smile about this small wonderful outcome we have after this week of complete hell.

[MrPeabody]

Just wanted to update..

I am finally 95% done with wrapping up this whole thing, closing the book, and moving on.

Still a few papers to sort through, people to contact for different reasons, and last but not least: waiting on the toxicology report to find out what the definite cause of death is.

Today, something amazing happened.

Let's just say that I know Mom had a very small amount of money when she passed. Up until today, I wasn't sure if it had been taken from her body, given to a drug dealer, or any number of other possibilities. The fact that the money was not accounted for was bothering me.

Today, while turning her new apt upside down, I found it. I'm not going to get into details, but I'm just going to say that what I found made this whole week of working, trying to wrap everything up, and trying to close this book completely worth it.

Mom never really could buy our daughter anything because of other obligations with her money..drugs, bills, groceries, you name it. Also, there was always the factor of whether or not we would approve of what she bought for Haleigh. She had mentioned buying a Haleigh a few Golden books for her birthday (Jan 30, 2011). I heard this but had found none in cleaning out her apt.

Little Golden Books (http://www.randomhouse.com/golden/lgb/)

Tonight we hit the book store and we cleared a shelf. We bought enough Golden books for Haleigh for her to use and enjoy for years to come. Tomorrow, we will go and get her a few spring outfits and some other things she needs.

I know that somewhere, wherever Mom is, she is smiling down on us now, knowing that the money that I found is being spent on her one and only grandbaby. I have given my Mom the opportunity she always wanted, but couldn't do because of other things in her life. Now, those other obligations no longer matter, and Haleigh will be happy.

I only wish Mom could see her playing an reading her new books and wearing her new clothes. She would be so proud :)

I feel good about tonight. Hard not to smile about this small wonderful outcome we have after this week of complete hell.

What a lovely story. And how nice of you to thank everyone in this thread.

[oyealiz]

I feel good about tonight. Hard not to smile about this small wonderful outcome we have after this week of complete hell.

Thanks for sharing such a good outcome. :)

[OddBall]

Sorry I missed this thread. Prayers sent for your family.
Glad she was able to give one final gift.

[atomic punk]

Thanks for sharing such a good outcome. :)

:iagree: God bless you....

[Rob]

I am sorry to hear about your loss.

I am glad your Mom was able to give your daughter something to cherish.

[lspencer534]

I am late to this thread too. I'm sorry for your huge loss, but I want to thank you for sharing this with us. It's very stark, sobering, and touching reading. I commend you on being able to so openly and maturely express your feelings for your Mom. My prayers are sent for you and for her. BRB...I kinda lost it with the Little Golden Books. :sadangel:

[Exotix]

:sadangel::sadangel:

[Jeff '79]

That's really heavy man. You will get through this, and put it behind you, and time will heal. You aren't the only one who has family problems like this, and all too many times, the survivor blames themselves..... Don't......She lived the way she wanted to, as do you, and no one can control one's destiny, but themselves.....It really sucks getting older, and times like these really bring that thought to the fore front. Ahhh, to be 8 yrs old again.....God speed brother...:angel:

[NB2K]

This is poor news, J.S.

I am sorry for your loss, but know that your Mom has foumd peace at last.:angel:

[Yerf Dog]

Sorry for your loss.

[HeatherO]

very sad.
sorry for your loss :angel:

[DAB]

sorry to hear of your loss.

[jda67gta]

God Bless you and your family.

[American Made]

Christ man I feel for you. Prayers for your mom and for you and the rest of the family. :sadangel:

[CBonsall]

:sadangel:

[JRD77VET]

Just came across the late, please accept my sincere condolences on the loss of your mom.

Very nice remembrance getting the books too.

Jeff